Anorexia = perfection, iin?

it's sad that you're putting image above your health
to the point where you'd rather be dead as long as you're what you think is "thin"

the problem is... you see body fat where others see normal flesh.
this is not normal. looking like a skeleton is only attractive to skeletor

Man. That's terrible. Your doctor is a dick and your nurse is the cunt he's sticking it in.

Being unhealthily thin is not attractive and it's not perfect. What's the good in being thin if you've barely got the strength enough to live your life? You're destroying your body, forcing it to run off of reserves of energy that are not there. Look up the health effects of anorexia, do you consider lanugo, disease, a shitty immune system, infertility and physical weakness "perfection"?

You want to be healthy, and not fat, but the point is not physical appearance, the point is being in good enough shape to live your life and not be at the mercy of a stairway or type 2 diabetes. Please go see a counselor. This is not normal and every minute you spend doing this is further damaging your body. Health isn't just about length of life, it's about quality of life and you're looking at what could possibly be a slow, painful, miserable death.

The fact that youre on here asking for help should tell you all you need to know. :/

Also if you have body dysmorphic disorder, it doesnt matter how skinny you get. Youll still want to lose more weight.

As much good advice as I could give you, the best at my disposal is to seek counseling to help you deal with these problems and be healthy. Dont give up if the first ones no good, I had to go through several before I found someone who worked for me.

No... your body is a machine and needs fuel to run. Without fuel, you'll die. Hard facts, you will die.

Is dying what you want to do? Being skinny isn't perfect, being healthy and happy is. Please, talk to someone about all of this and not just us net people.

Anorexia is just as bad as being obese, as in atrractiveness.

its kind of surprising to me that you don't exercise. i can't help but wonder why not. maybe you should try exercising just to relieve some of the stress that comes from your need for perfection. i would think it would greatly increase your self image, since you'll like the results on your body and just the act of exercising itself creates a general good feeling. maybe it'll help you start seeing your body as a good thing, and you could start giving yourself some food-leway because you'll feel like you deserve it. at least that's what works for me but i have no idea what you're going through, i really think its something serious and you shouldn't have to suffer. please change therapists

Here's what will happen to you in the long run if you continue down this self-destructive path:

-Infertility
-Osteoporosis
-High risk of depression and anxiety, which increases the likelihood of committing suicide
-Heart disease
-Diabetes
-Gastrointestinal problems (eg. bloating and constipation)
-Oesophagus cancer
-Permanent brain damage
-Anemia
-Multiorgan (eg. kidney, liver, heart, pancreas) failure, which can result in death.

You say you want to die thin. The thing is, though, you won't die quickly. You will experience most of the symptoms I've listed above before you die, and it will be highly painful and all-around unpleasant.

I don't mean to scare you, but you do need a wake up call. Please seek help, and not from that doctor you saw before.

104 fat?! .......hmmmmm

It's definitely not a good idea to be anorexic like this. You're doing something counterproductive. If you make yourself too thin you will look uglier than ever, and risk illness and death. If anyone gawks at your body with severe anorexia their first impression would be worry rather than attractiveness. Take the example of Isabelle Caro, a French model. She had anorexia and in the end it just made her look like a dying 100-year old. She actually did die in 2010 at the age of 28.

To get into shape, simply avoid foods with high sugar content and too much carbohydrates. You do need it but you can get it through other healthy sources like fruit. Instead of eating 3 big meals a day, have a meal every 3 hours. Eat a medium breakfast, lunch and dinner every 6 hours from when you get up, and a snack in between (ex. If you get up at 6, eat breakfast right away, have a snack at 9, eat lunch at 12, snack at 3, eat dinner at 6 and have another snack anytime after dinner). Do NOT skip meals because that's just going to eat into your muscle as your body tries to conserve fat more than anything else.

If you still have a sweet-tooth, buy products sweetened with stevia. It's a natural sweetener found in chicory root that's much sweeter than sugar. Don't consume more then 10g of it every day though, but that won't be an issue because the slightest bit of stevia can add LOTS of sweetness. Don't use aspartame because it just increases your craving for sugar.

If you can, look at my profile picture. That's perfection!!

I think it's more the people you're surrounded with than yourself.

Your parents are clearly useless and so is that doctor. I would highly advise you to see some sort of therapist and discuss it with them.

Perhaps by opening up and talking with a compassionate person may help you set on the right road to a healthy diet and weight.

I'm not sure there's much anyone can say that would convince you that your lifestyle is incredibly unhealthy. Anorexia is one of the most horrible diseases I've seen people go though, and not all those people got though it alive. It truly is a soul destroying disease.

I hope you fight this illness. No matter how much you try to change yourself, at the end of the day, you are you. Nobody else but you. And when you finally realize you have changed, what could've been an amazing life had ended all too soon. So you wanna be skinny even if it kills you? .... :(. Thats sad. Imagine how many people who love you you'd be leaving behind. And Audrey Hepburn was struggling with anorexia for a while too. Don't go down that same route. Help yourself by getting the help you need.

You are so, so, so wrong. ... :(

Alright normally I would troll the hell out of something like this, especially since you mentioned the doctor's and nurse's making fun of you as a "wake up" call. But you cant see the ridiculousness of what you are talking about? I mean look at this statement here from a comment: When I die, I want to be the thinnest I could be. If not, then I'd never be able to live with myself. You wouldnt be able to live with yourself if you dont die thin?? That doesnt make sense at all. You are slowly killing yourself with your delusion of thinking you are fat or wanting to "be thin". You are thin. 5'2 and 104 lbs is THIN, too thin. What makes your self worth coincide so strongly with needing to be thin?

just something that someone should probably point out, pudge is normally temporary as in from what you've just eaten its normal to get physically bloated. Also people who are starved and anorexic tend to *puff* up because of the lack of food and it gets misunderstood as fat. Its also common to put weight on more easily the less consistently you eat food.

One thing I can tell from the way your talking is that you are a person of extremes and you will remain that way until you can find balance. What i mean by that is this:
You want to get as thin as possible
You exercised past what your limit was and got hurt
This and I myself am I person of extremes and you have to be careful. This has nothing to do with being anorexic or being fat if you somehow manage to enjoy food you will probably just end up eating an extreme amount its normal. This will happen until you realize you don't need to control yourself you need to balance yourself. Its difficult to see which way is up when your always falling over.

Other than that good job being alive till now, your ahead of others. Have fun and good luck

Ok, if you want man characteristics. That is so unhealthy, you grow a lot more hair all over your body. You lose your womenhood meaning you won't have periods, won't be able to have children do to that and plus it does screw up you menstral cycle even when you start eating healthy and getting excercise in; pretty much earlier menopause.

My friend who became anorexic in high school even had constipation issues. She still has them when it's been nearly 7 years since then and she is healthy and in shape now. She even had a child and still has health issues due to it.

I just don't understand why you think anorexic people are so attractive. There is nothing there but flesh and bone, plus it shows that you have a very low self-esteem on yourself. You need to be happy with yourself before finding someone. :(

My question is how tall are you?

Hey... truth is there isn't a thing called perfection. the perfect anorexic is dead. point out those things you like about your body & learn to love those parts you hate, with time it gets better there is no joy in starving yourself that's no way to live ain't it. anorexia isn't glamorous there is no glory in it, it's a monster that will eat you alive. take action & get help YOU are in control NOT anorexia. all the best. x

Hun always love your body for what it is it is ok to have normal weight loss I myself am trying to lose weight I have often thought of starving myself but then I thought of all the bad things that can happen I think you should see a therapist

look at it this way ,kim kardashian is not thin and she is sexy.Just aim for a healthy weight.

Audrey had some nice curves, and was most certainly not anorexic.

If your not a troll and Papagee's and Missorel's comments wont give you a wake up call then well good luck dieing.

This is not normal, as one person pointed out already the problem is you see "fat" in certain body parts where no else does.
Ask yourself this...being super skinny...is it going to bring you happiness? (your still suffering from depression)...is it going to give you friends?...is it going to make you a more likeable person?...is it going to give you a boyfriend?..Food is not the problem, the thoughts are, Food is fab!

It can and probably will kill you. Anorexia is not perfection and I know very few people who even find skinny girls attractive. Please seek professional help for your eating disorder, and cut yourself off from sites like tumblr that trigger you.

So many of your posts make me sad. Being healthy is being closest to perfection. You know the things you do to yourself are not healthy.

There are a few small things that I think could help you...

Look up your BMI for your height. It should be between 20-25 and the lowest of 20 is the minimum weight you should be, or it can lead to health problems like osteoporosis :o( which has long term consequences for you.

There is too much of this nowadays and parents could help by getting rid of bathroom scales and full length mirrors in the house.

Look after yourself pet ~ you are more than a skeleton covered with skin. I'm sure you're a lovely, sensitive and caring person.