Anxiety and life advice

I have severe anxiety and I don't know what to do with my life. I'm just looking for some guidance and advice, maybe typing everything out will help me even if this doesn't get any replies, so here we go.

I have struggled with anxiety for most of my life, I am a 21 year old male and I'm currently unemployed. I have never really known what I wanted to do as a career, so I didn't go to college and worked in a warehouse for almost 2 years to get some money while I thought about what I wanted to do or study. My anxiety had almost completely disappeared while I was working, I was finally starting to make some friends, etc.

I've been out of work now for just over a year and I have been living off of my savings from working which are now starting to run out which is starting to stress me out as my car insurance renewal is coming up in the next couple of months. I had started to form a brief plan of what I wanted to do with my life. I was thinking of going in to web design or game development, something along those lines. I was waiting for an apprenticeship to come up, which it finally did a couple of months back, but they rejected me just before the coronavirus outbreak.

My next brief plan was to get a part time job and study web design/development in my own time. However after about a month of lockdown, I have made no progress. I'm starting to think that maybe that's not the right path for me as I clearly don't have the ambition and motivation to study it, which has been tough for me to admit as I have been clinging to this path for awhile now.

As for my anxiety, it has slowly been getting worse over this last year, but it has hit an all time peak during lockdown. It's not because of coronavirus, it's more because of the way people are acting (I think?). I refuse to go to any stores and I'll only go outside (to take the trash out, etc) if it's dark out so I can avoid seeing people and avoid them seeing me. I feel as if I'm slipping back to my old ways which upsets me as I have came such a long way over the last few years. I'm also worried that the coronavirus lockdown is going to make finding work even harder.

I have previously been medicated for depression and anxiety, but I stopped taking my medication while working as I didn't need it anymore and I didn't like the side effects. I'm starting to think that maybe I need to go to a doctor, but I really don't want to as I know what they're like and I don't want to go through the process of trying new medications again and stuff.

Sorry for the long post, I know it's all kind of everywhere, but I just feel so lost and I don't know what to do and I just can't see a light at the end of this tunnel. I know from past experiences that I won't always feel like this and that I need to carry on, so this is kind of my way of calling out for help.

Any advice or help would be highly appreciated. Thank you for your time.