Anxiety around females, normal around males?
I'm 18, a senior in high school, and I'm realizing I've only been completely comfortable around guys ever since the 7th grade. From then to now I've either hung out with boys....or girls who were tomboys. Ocassionaly, I would meet a really nice, extremely feminine girl to talk to, but I was never truly able to open up to them.
By this age, I think it's bad for me because now when I'm around unfamiliar women, I automatically feel anxiety or shyness. I get extremely uncomfortable when I have to work with them in groups during class. And I can definitely talk to a male teacher more than a female teacher. My best friend is a guy (he's gay.) and my other best friend is a female, but with masculine tendencies.
People ask if I'm a lesbian or something, but I know I'm not. Believe me I LOVE MEN in a very obvious way, so it's not that;Plus I am shy around the guys that I do like.
I think many girls think I'm a slut, or that I'm too conceited to speak to them, but It's not like that.
(Imagine this too. I'm a African american girl, and I hang in a group of cacausian guys, all jokesters. XD It definitely sticks out. )
I'll be graduating soon, and I'm a bit worried if this will affect my future. The high school environment, or so I've been told, is one of a kind. Is it just a phase, or should I probably start conditioning myself to get used to females for college? If so, how would I do this?