Anxious about death?
I am so glad I stumbled upon this site. For the couple months now, I've been researching about anxiety, panic attacks and THE FEAR OF DEATH! I have to admit, I probably getting the most use of my IPad and cell phone because of these----just constantly researching about my personal problem of death.
I have read about other's concerning the same fear, and I am so happy knowing I am not the only one who suffers from. I also want to share my battles with it and how I am coping with it. Heck, we can be together on this journey; on how we are feeling when that thoughts come, how we are going to deal with it, and overcoming IT!
It all began with when my mother died to stoke at age 67 last December 2013. When she was alive, I knew it would come someday that she will pass away but it would happened at her late 80's. But, she died suddenly! I was so heartbroken because I was very close to her, then I started having panic attacks, anxiety and depression. It has been a year now since she past away and I thought it would get better but it isn't. My anxiety worsen, and for the Las two months, Death start creeping in every day! Whenever I things for people, even the tough of calling love ones, looking after my own family, and spending time with friends that thought of death will start creeping in, almost like it's trying to justify or contain my desire to do all the things is because I'm going to die soon!!! WTH right?
There are days when I don't even try to be a friend, a lover, a mom, a sister, an aunt anymore. I would just let that fear succumbed me! Whenever I let it, it's stopping me from enjoying the things I love because I am so scared of Death as it eels like it just in front of me.
No, it's not an easy battle. I just want it to stop and I can't wait for it to go away for good! Remembering who I was before this all began is helping me to cope with it. Reading about it a lot helps knowing that I'm not the only one who suffers is comforting. I realize is just a FEAR but it can't take over me because I am bigger than fear, and for you, who are going through the same issue, YOU are bigger than it.
I know it's going to be a long journey for me. How I am going to face it? Recognize that it is an issue I must overcome, I will not let it run my life and I need to be strong mentally and physically. It's going to be tough and starts to remind myself my purpose in this life and what matters to me.
I will write more soon.