Are my fears normal?
So I'm basically immune to most fears. I'm not afraid of things like death or blood or the law, I have 3 solid fears.
1. Emetophobia (fear of throwing up)
2. Phillophobia (fear of love)
3. And autophobia (fear of oneself)
Emetophobia
Ever since i got some terrible sickness when i was really little I've been dead afraid of vomiting. I was pretty much heaving up nothing and tearing into my insides while i digested myself.
Phillophobia
I've basically avoided love and relationships all together because of repeated betrayal as a child and a really dysfunctional family with divorced parents. I'm also not very good at loving without breaking the other persons heart and that is a link between this fear and the next.
Autophobia
I've always had more than one personality inside and I've done bad things because of it. I have a homicidal side to me and its been there since i was young, hurting things brings me a rush. Although I'm mostly incapable of guilt it has caused consequences that have hurt me severely and it makes me fear myself. The only time I do feel guilt is when I hurt somebody I love over it. Sometimes I get the urge to run forever trying to escape myself, I know it's impossible but as long as I'm running i feel safe.