Are some people just incapable of having or maintaining friendships?
For as long as i could remember i've never had friends for longer than 5 years, either they abruptly stop talking to and dissappear or they just all of a sudden stop responding to me no matter what i say to them. Some just delete me from their lives and others keep me there but never respond... I'm getting to the point were i'm close to just giving up on having and looking for friends, but if i do that i'll have absolutely no one to talk to and that has only been fucking with my head more than not having any friends.. I thought about forcing myself to the point were my body has no other choice but to change for it's survival, like re-wiring my brain so i don't want or even think about being friends with people. (I've done this before with other things and other then it messing up other parts of my brain it has worked)