Bipolar, anxiety, ocd: self medicating

I have the SAME problem. Except I turn down every therapist ive ever talked to due to the fact that in the first five minutes of talking to me they try to prescribe me with medicine that could potentially damage me in the long run. Can you get to know me first!? They told me before we could begin a serious treatment I needed rehab for marijuana which has led me to fixing the problem on my own. Mind over matter. Marijuana has been the only thing that calms me down and helps me think rationally after an episode. How can something natural and have positive effects be so bad? I understand its a temp fix to a real problem(s). Just like the medicine they give you does. Not sure what personal issues led you to where you are now, but I'm still figuring it out myself. Nothing worse than feeling trapped, paranoid, and stuck. All we can do is look out for ourselves and remind us that were better than what we give ourselves credit for. Stand up, grab life by the balls and say you're fed up with feeling this way. Let yourself have it. You deserve it. Everyone deserves peace. Good luck to you.

Is it really such a huge risk? What's the worst that could happen if you got caught with the amounts you usually buy? If it's jail, then yeah ok I understand your reluctance.

Ideally it'd be great if you could get by on legal meds. But obviously it's not that simple. Maybe they don't work so well, and you'd have to go through an adjustment period giving up marijuana etc. So...you just have to weigh it up.

Maybe you're better off using cannabis despite the legality problem.

It could be the things in your enviroment. If things were healthier these days, you may be fine.

As you have already bailed your stand in theripist I would suggest you to call your regular therupist and speak to her about your current condition.
Alternatively you may find another theripist to help you. I don't think self medication and smoking is a good decision.

I have a similar issue, I am diagnosed with depression, anxiety and OCD. I do take medication and it does help, it will never be a magic pill and fully go away so I find other ways to cope I go to therapy weekly, breathing exercises , which really do help, I was reluctant at first. I'm living a very happy life considering the daily effects of ocd/anxiety. With all that smoking weed has also helped me to calm down or to calm down after an anxiety attack. I felt guilty about at it at first, its not legal but its natural and does help me a lot. I also suffer from back pain and don't want to take opioids so the weed helps with that also. I never smoke during the day or before work, its after I get home, dinner is cooked. It works for me. I don't think its wrong to smoke but I do advise to find a therapist you are comfortable with and to look into breathing exercises. Ive been in therapy ever since I was young, hated most of them but I kept looking, would give them a chance I would try one for 3 sessions, if I didn't feel comfortable then on to the next, until I find someone that fits me. Hope this helps! Good luck!