Can crystal meth make a straight person bisexual?
Not that it's at all okay to do meth or normal.
But I did smoke crystal meth and continued using it every other few weekends and would be up for like 3 or 4 days for about 6 months in my life a few years ago. After about 6 months of this I had a bisexual experience and I am ashamed of it.. I have always known myself to be straight.. Now I'm confused about what happened but I still consider myself straight because I'd never want to be with a dude, but I had this experience out of the blue.. while high after a few days being up I somehow ended up at some gay guys house.. my female friend left me there and I was too f**ked up to leave. The meth made me feel hornier than I'd ever been before in my life exponentially to infinity. I don't know what got in to me but I put on some internet porn.. it wasn't long after that I started jerking off and I didn't care that the gay guy was there and watching me. I couldn't stop jerking off for like 12 hours.. the guy blew me. Whats worse is I went back there and did the same thing like 6 more times. I'm so ashamed.. I was 28 when this happened. I've never had gay/bi feelings b4, I'm not attracted to men at all, but on speed it was a whole different thing.. I must have liked it or I wouldn't have gone back there 6 times. I would never have done this sober. I don't even know what to think of myself now. I have since cleaned up, I don't mess with that stuff.. a few years have passed. I'm horrified still. I don't think I could ever admit that to anyone in person. I'm afraid of how this will affect my future relationships.. I don't think I could ever be honest about that to a women - she'd dump me on the spot! In fact my last girlfriend 'had a feeling' I played with dudes (And IDK WTF cus I don't act gay and don't think that way) but of course I couldn't tell her the truth about what had happend! F**K! And she dumped me. I guess I have more than one questions here.. I know I need to see a counselor but I don't have the money. I am in deep emotional pain about this years later. I'm so ashamed and horrified with myself.. Other than that 6 months in my life I've always been a good outstanding person, but now I can't seem to get past this horrible experience. Any comments advice would be appreciated, but please don't insult me I've been through enough already.