Desperation searching, a catch 22 or caused by technology?
Anyone else experience desperation searching or the opposite, feeling desperate after searching and not finding what you are looking for?
This is happening to me at work. Something upsets me at work, which re-triggers me basically to look for another job and get out (a manager harassing me, for example, it's not okay)
I go to look on the job boards and see nothing I want to apply for, or the places I'd like to work at, aren't posting. I keep searching and searching, more and more unsure of what to do next, and feeling more helpless and desperate by the minute, because I'll think back of the situation at work that makes me feel like UGNGGGHG! I can't stand it and want to get out.
This also happens when I'm looking for a hookup/sex/dates/any of those apps. I start feeling desperate because I feel like I'm (insert anxious feeling?) for not getting laid/talking to anyone, so then I go to look again. Then I look and nothing happens, no one talks to me, I never get the hookup or date or basically the desperation just re-inforces itself.
Is it the apps/the searching/the nature of these these things causing and re-inforcing the desperation that I need them now?
Then I look out of desperation, or I look and then I feel desperation and hopeless because it doesn't happen, because I don't see anything that can happen.
Anyone else experiencing this? It's awful, it really triggers anxiety and panic and intense, intense bouts of hopelessness and frustration because I want to DO SOMETHING about whatever situation is bothering me or I want to change, improve; it feels very much so like feeling stuck between a rock and hard place, or something like that.