Don't belong here
All my life and I mean all my life I have NEVER felt belonging to this world! It's was so bad that at age 7 I thought the only way home yes home was to kill myself!? I remember looking out a window and then looking at my siblings and father and it just didn't seem right or real? Then I had this awful thought at such a young age 7! I literally remember seeing myself in my mind jumping in front of a bus so I could get out and go home! Life was and still is a coma! I am a complete observer in everything! I analyse everything and contemplate so much! It never stops wish I could switch it off! But can't unfortunately!and nothing has changed since 7 years old now 41! Anyone else the same out in this world?