Falling in love with an unattractive, stinky man
During quarantine I had a nasty breakup with a longtime boyfriend who I thought was going to propose in the future. I was lonely and devastated.
I opened up Tinder and most of the guys I’m normally attracted to didn’t meet other criteria or didn’t like me in return. I finally found this guy, Patrick, who wasn’t attractive but seemed very sweet back in may 2020.
I gave him a chance and we have been friends since. The problem besides not being physically attracted to him is that he has body odor. All this may seem superficial, however, what would be a deal breaker for a longer relationship is that he can’t preform in bed.
He had cancer and lost a testicle, he can’t get hard. He’s d is very tiny (2”) so I can barely suck him. I let him eat me out and play with my boobs.
I go over his place often to spend the night, it’s become almost every other, he’s like a security blanket to me :) I don’t sleep well without him. I’ve been having an inner conflict about continuing this as I don’t think we can be compatible for a long term relationship. There was another guy who I was more attracted to that I was talking with, however I cut him off as I don’t want to lose my time with Patrick.
I’m conflicted as to my next move.