Fear that people notice i'm worried

Why wear these "strange" clothes if you know you will have an unpleasant experience? Isn't that kind of stupid?

Right, just realized this was active 5 years ago, but just wanted to say I totally get how you feel. I hope you're managing it with some success now, but it's all good if not - I've been there since I was ~16 and now at 32 I still am there to some extent sometimes.

For me it started at school when I had to do a presentation about something. Obv many people are scared of it and that's cool but when I realized my hands that were holding the paper I needed to read from, were shaking, I just freaking panicked - so much so that my head started shaking too. I didn't do anything drastic, but now I was shaking from the embarassment of being seen shaking and since then it stuck.

This hit me the worst some 6 years ago - there were a couple of times when I was standing in a crowded tram, realized I'm feeling kinda anxious, realized I'm starting to shake a little and the fear of others seeing me shaking was so strong that again - my head actually started to shake and Ī had to get off then and there, miss work, etc, just because I couldnt handle staying in that tram.

Now it's much better tho - not sure how, but it just passed. Partially I'm sure it's just age and the decrease of f*cks to give, but since I'm prone to mental issues, I read a lot about overcoming this and that, so there must be some things that stuck instictively.

This comment is probably useless, lol, but in case anyone with the same problem stumbles upon it - you're definitely not alone and feel free to talk to me - I'm no guru, but I know even just being understood can do so much to help, so no worries.

Define strange clothes.

Social anxiety

Why not just fuck a sweet innocent little infant in its tight asshole to take your mind off it?