First date since before the pandemic and im scared
I downloaded Tinder mainly for fun just to scroll and wasnt planning on talking to or meeting anyone. I have social anxiety which have only worsened in self isolation which is funny in a grim sort of way because I finally finished CBT for my social anxiety one month before covid came so...Now I have seriously decided to re-do CBT again hahaha because I have lost everything I learned... Im quiet but on dates I always try my hardest to make conversation and come off as relaxed. I used to go on many dates since I honestly cant make friends due to my anxiety, nor do I honestly feel much of a need to have friends, so I found the easiest way of practicing my social skills to be via Tinder. In the beginning I would get so sick before each date that i'd vomit and I was unable to eat anything and it was a real problem, but eventually that stopped happening. Now though i'm afraid i'm back to that level of anxiety again...Ive also never gone all the way with anyone due to my anxiety which includes sexual anxiety. During self isolation ive started craving intimacy in a way I havent before though so hopefully that has helped me beat that part of my anxiety a bit so I can finally go all the way but now im anxious about my age...
Im mid 20s and should be experienced.
Anyways... I came across this sweet guy on Tinder. He seems sweet and is polite and we have a lot in common.
We've texted and yesterday he asked me if I want to go out with him and I said sure and then he said we should set a date and I told him i'm getting my next vaccine shot this week and he told me he is as well so it's great timing. I'm concerned i'll make a fool of myself by being too anxious, fiddly and stuttering...
I am scared because dates are so much pressure and involves everything I despise like lots of eyecontact and eating infront of another person. I dont know how i'm supposed to do it. Maybe i'll have a glass of wine or two beforehand but honestly I don't think it'll be of that much help.