Girl fucked me up for life

There was this chic in highschool who I really liked but it wasnt gonna work I could tell she didnt like me so I backed off to not seem desperate. We stayed friends and id talk to her on the phone. This was a country girl and she really liked hunting. She hunted all the time. And me being the softy that doesnt like to hurt a fly I asked her why she does it and does she do it just for the meat. She said she didnt even eat the meat her dad does but she honestly just likes to kill things. I cant remember her exact words. But she basically just explained that she likes to kill stuff, its cool to see them die and she enjoys being the one to kill them. Or something along those lines.

At first I thought damn what a bitch. It struck me as odd because appearance wise and how she treated people made it hard to believe that she was sort of a sadist. But I think it was so taboo that days later I thought it made her hotter for some reason. Ever since I have been attracted to girls that hunt for some reason. This branched off into other similar things that you might call fetishes. But it all started I think from that one girl. Still to this day I dont like to kill shit but I think girls that do are more attractive