God told me that my husband was going to die, is that normal?
About five years ago, a lot of things were happening in my life that made me feel like my husband was going to die. After a few months of this happening, I woke up one morning and in my mind I heard the words ... "write it down, write it down, write it down", over and over. As soon as I heard those words I knew it meant to write down my recent experiences that related to my husband dying. Some time passed and I never took the time to write anything down.
Another morning a month or so later, I was praying and said to God "Help me to live your will for my life, and if I am holding up your will in any way please let me know" I got an immediate response that literally stopped me in my tracks... "I already asked you once to write it down", God said to me! The next thought that went trough my mind was "There was no denying that!" it was the most clear message I have ever received.
So, I spent a little time each day for the next week writing it all down. Even though it felt a little crazy; I started out with the words "To be read at Travis's funeral" followed by about five pages of things that have recently happened in our lives that made me feel like he was going to die. I saved the document on a flash drive. Shortly after this I had a feeling that I should print it and put it in an envelope. That seemed a little silly to me, so I did not do it. A month or so later the same thought came to me again, print the document and put it an envelope. So, I decided that even though this seemed weird, it was not going to hurt me to print it and put it in an envelope, so I did and ran it through a postage machine so there was a date on it. I hid the envelope. Not long after this, I lost the flash drive that the document was saved on! Now it made sense as to why God asked me to print the document and put it in an envelope.
It now has been over five years since this happened, and my husband is only 35. I still often feel like my husband is going to die and God is preparing me for it. This is extremely exhausting! I think about it daily and cry at times. I don't understand why God would tell me my husband is going to die. And why have a felt like this for over five years and it has still not happened.
Has anyone else ever experienced something like this? Is this normal?