Has anyone ever had a dream about committing suicide?

This is kinda dark to discuss but...um...oh well...

When I was a kid I had a dream about committing suicide. I was standing at the edge of the building but I wasn't scared at all. In fact, I felt peaceful and happy. I spread my arms and let myself fall, facing the ground and my family at the bottom. As I was falling down, I felt my heart race (adrenaline, not fear), I was smiling. I was staring at the ground as it became closer and closer. When I hit the ground, everything went black and then I woke up, heart racing.

Another one, but this time it was my Mom and my neighbors. (This is way darker than the first one...)

It was at night. I was in front our house, humming, staring at vehicles that pass by. Some of our neighbors laid down in the middle of the road while other people just sat and watched. They would sit up once in a while to check for vehicles to show up to finally run them over. My Mom came out from our house. I asked her what's going on. She ignored me. She did the same as our neighbors, she laid down in the middle of the road and waited impatiently for vehicles. I didn't seem to care tho, nobody did. I just continued humming casually. Mom told me to let her know if I see a car so that she could get ready. I said "okay" but in my head I was telling myself "Why aren't you doing anything? Do something!!!" like I have no control over my body. When the vehicles finally showed up and ran the people over including Mom (Omg,I don't wanna think about it), I finally got control over my body. There was blood everywhere! I was in shock! I was sobbing and screaming. The people around me, my dad, my siblings, strangers were asking me why I didn't do anything to save them. They were blaming me for their deaths. I was covering ears and my eyes were tightly shut. And then I suddenly woke up.

These are the worst childhood nightmares that still hunt me up until now. Idk what's gotten into me and suddenly wanted to share them on the internet. Has any of you ever had weird and disturbing nightmares like these?