Have i lost soul?

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As a kid I remember sitting in church and feeling like I wasnt "part" of it.
Like "God" didnt like me or want me to be happy like all these dancing singing people. I hated god because I alwa felt alone.

I hit about 13/14 and I just wanted to be some sort of "anti-Christ" I was obsessed wiv illuminati and freemasons.
I wanted to be recruited so I could be part of something.

I've smoked weed - drunk heavy - had sex - and NONE of it makes me feel happy. Not for long. I've no passion for anything anymore as I believe it wont make me rich. N Its not worth spending loads of time on if Im still gonna be broke at the end.
Mi family sa I alwa looks miserable - its becuz I FUCKING AM!!!

I dunno man. I wanna be able to smile for no reason again. I vaguely remeber the feeling. I want to feel like I LOVE ppl or things again - I feel hollow. Emotionless?
Whats wrong wiv me? Is it the weed and beer? OR could it be genetic maybe??
What can I do to feel motivated to do something....anything..... again??
(kinda serious w/ this. Plz, fuck off w/ the trolling)

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  • trytoforgetthis
    8 years ago

    Christianity is one hell of a disease.

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    • shoka2322
      7 years ago

      Fuck you! It's the only true religion!

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    • Rainbowbash
      8 years ago

      Really? Damn, all these years I thought it was a religion... Ugh, now I feel dumb.

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      • gentleman97
        8 years ago

        Nah not a disease. A parasite. It is a parasite.

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  • SavedByGrace
    8 years ago

    If you are thinking like this, you have not lost your soul.

    We have all sinned (Romans 3:23) and and come short of the glory of God, some more than others, but at the end of the day, we have all sinned and we all deserve to lose our souls into hell fire.

    But that's the bad new, now for the good news, God doesn't want us to lose our souls, and that's why he sent Jesus, the Bible says that Jesus's death on the cross paid for our sins and forgiveness and eternal life is available for whosoever believes in Jesus, the Bible says Jesus delivered (crucified) for our offences, and was raised again for our justification (Romans 4:25).

    Forgiveness of sins is apart from doing good works, we can't save ourselves by good works, that is why Jesus had to pay it all.

    Eternal life in Heaven is for those who cease trying to earn their own salvation (Heaven) by good works and simply comes to Jesus Christ by faith alone (Romans 4:5).

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  • green_boogers
    8 years ago

    This happens to me sometimes. If I am kind to people, it helps a bit.

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  • [Old Memory]
    8 years ago

    You just sound depressed.

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    • [Old Memory]
      8 years ago

      On the plus side you have the intelligence to not follow what people tell you to believe.

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  • clevelandashkenaziatheist
    8 years ago

    This is depression. I have it too. It sucks. People think of depression as that thing that makes people kill themselves, but there is an amazingly wide spectrum of symptoms, of which you've named quite a few. There are many online resources for information, but the best course of action from my experience is to let a psychologist help. Nothing that you've done would cause this, it's just a genetic thing that hits some people as they get older. Things will get more manageable, at least, if not better. There's a good chance you will be referred to a psychiatrist because there are many great pharmaceutical options these days. There is absolutely nothing wrong with these, the only effect you'll notice, unless you happen to have an allergy (as I had with fluoxetine), is being less depressed. Hope this helps!

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    • Ellenna
      8 years ago

      cont'd ... NOT TRUE there's nothing wrong with anti-depressants! They have serious negative effects on many if not most people: lack of affect; libido disfunction; weight gain; lethargy; deepening of depression to the point of suicide.

      Counselling yes, preferably not with a psychiatrist, bc they're more inclined to prescribe useless/dangerous drugs. Cognitive Behavior Therapy with a psychologist works for many people

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      • clevelandashkenaziatheist
        8 years ago

        Depression is highly linked to genetics.

        http://depressiongenetics.stanford.edu/mddandgenes.html

        Most people are perfectly fine on antidepressants.

        http://www.webmd.com/depression/antidepressants-9/slideshow-antidepressants

        http://www.health.harvard.edu/mind-and-mood/what_are_the_real_risks_of_antidepressants

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    • Ellenna
      8 years ago

      What's your evidence depression is genetic? So it has nothing to do with trauma or other environmental factors? Rubbish!

      It's

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  • Rainbowbash
    8 years ago

    Yeah. As a young lad I felt the same way in church. I didn't know the feeling. I can't say why your depressed, or how, but what advice I can give is to make some friends, and lean on them. But the thing I don't get is, is just because you didn't feel it you wanted to be a anti-Christ? You may also want to see a therapist.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      u know passionate anger?
      imagine that - targeted at God because he didn't "let/make" me feel all "elated" like the ppl singing in church do.....I wanted to see ppl suffer and be sad like me. I would pray cursing at god and wishing for demons to posses me and stuff.
      Obvz none of it works tho.

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      • Rainbowbash
        8 years ago

        Lol. Eh, you're just being a douche if you prey for shit to possess you... I did feel a lot that for a short time, but after a while I felt that nice, blissful, warmnth too. Not really sure why, it just came for no reason... I can't really help in the way of telling you what to do, other than seeing somebody who can help. Because the crowd of goths, emos, and dumbfuck "cutters" today are all fakes, finks, douches, and pretenders... I cut myself for like, 2 years because it made me feel nice to do it, you see, I sucked at math in school... I was a straight A student in everything else EXCEPT math. I fell into a depression because of such a simple and rudimentary concept, but that feeling when you want to strangle a duck, punch a puppy, kill a my little pony character is just really, really crappy... Not saying you should cut, but it helps. Glad to see I'm normal as well XD Btw, you may want to quit about a month in because cutting can get obsessive. The only people who have gotten me to stop, are my parents, and my girlfriend.

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  • donteatstuffoffthesidewalk
    8 years ago

    gittin rich wont make yall no happier than sex drugs or rocknroll

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    • Ace9
      8 years ago

      That's not true about rocknroll!

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  • KingRabbit
    8 years ago

    you are a jaded teenager. welcome to the world. only you can make yourself happy. stop expecting to fix it by an outward influence.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      Fuck off u "supreme/I look down on everyone cuz I'm better" dick!
      Ur jaded!!! N need to fuck back off to hell bitch!!

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      • KingRabbit
        8 years ago

        nice reaction...tell me again how unjaded you are.

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          8 years ago

          die.... thats how....

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          • KingRabbit
            8 years ago

            Ouch

            So hurt
            Cryin'

            Ballin
            Sobbin

            Into my fake feather pillow

            real feathers make me sneeze

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  • ilovelittledaughterscock
    8 years ago

    only if you are a ranga

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  • iEatZombies_
    8 years ago

    Drinking is fine (if you're legal) once in a while, but smoking and drinking will never help you deal with how you feel. Those things are meant to do exactly the opposite- hence the overly relaxed, numb state of mind. You can't feel better if you're not really feeing much at all.
    The first thing you should do, is find some things you can get better at, that you like to do. Pick up a couple of hobbies. It'll feel strange at first, you'll feel like you can't do it, but that's okay. As long as you push through that feeling, you'll start getting the hang of it.
    The second thing you should do, is find like-minded people. People who share these interests with you. It's a mistake to try to fit into a group of people that you have nothing in common with, it's why you started feeling low in church.
    The third thing will come naturally. You'll find jobs in what you're doing simply because you already have friends who like what you do and want to help you do it.
    I'll tell you right now though, if you try to find something with the state of mind that you'll get rich, you won't love doing it- and if you don't love doing it, you won't get rich. That kind of stuff is for sons and daughters of already rich people and for people who just get plain lucky- which you should never count on.

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  • ucipher8
    8 years ago

    You cant expect yourself to be "happy" all the fucking time, if you are you Must be on drugs. Have you "lost your soul" i mean, who even knew you actually had one?! I don't even know if i have one!

    I wont give you something to be optimistic about mate but i would recommend that you take what you do have in life and just try to get comfortable with it. If thats not the case - get rid of the things that makes you uncomfortable and find this missing "soul" you are looking for.

    It might take the rest of your mortality to find it, but i can safely assume that you might smile here or there. At the end of the road - you cant go back and do it all over again. So look forward, and yes - look behind you from time to time.

    You aren't alone and there's a lot of traffic up ahead, you should be able to find some moments where you can just put the pedal to the metal and feel free. Just keep an eye on the speed limits and road signs.

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  • chained_rage
    8 years ago

    You should've picked the red pill

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  • Wilder654
    8 years ago

    You sound like you have borderline personality disorder lol

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