How do i get over my unusual and creepy racial fetish?
Let me preface this by saying that I've always had a thing for bad boys. Not that unusual, right?
However, for the last few months (maybe even years?) I've been having quite... politically incorrect fantasies. To sum it up, I've been dreaming about East Asian (Chinese/Japanese/Korean, you know the drill) men degrading or even raping (and I do mean rape) me in the worst ways. Especially if they're older than me (I'm in my early twenties) and with a criminal record. I'm a half French, half Arab woman, but I still look white to most people.
It's gotten so bad that I can't even look at a Far Eastern male (whether in real life or picture / film, even video game characters) without me imagining him doing disgusting and dirty things to me. I can still find men of other races handsome, but not to this extent.
As far as I remember, I do NOT have a history of sexual abuse by anyone. So where did this come from and how do I get over it? I don't actually mind being mostly attracted to Asians, but I do want to interact with them like a normal person, not like a racist sex pest.