How to stop falling in love with someone you know you can’t have
This is embarrassing to say but I am a gay idiot who has an intense crush on my married straight boss. I live in a place where being gay is hated by the society around it. I didn’t ask to be born gay and can’t help having a crush on my boss. I try to deny that feeling but I always failed horribly.
It’s emotionally excruciating to bottle up the fact that I am gay for my boss since I can’t ask for advice from people around me considering they hate gay people. I have to pretend that I am straight. I hate myself for being something that hurts me emotionally.
Is there a way to stop this shit? I just want to be happy, for fuck sake.