How to stop my bad habit? (stalking on girls)

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Hello!

I've decided to write here, because there is something seriously screwed up in my life.
First of all call me a loner, an introvert and a not outgoing type. I'm a socially unexperienced 23 yr old dude, without friends, mostly because I just kept myself away from hanging out with others, now nobody's inviting me anywhere and I have no friends, just a few pals...
To get to the root of the problem: My problem mainly is intensified attention on women's butts. It all began when I was around 14 after I finished elementary. I started to use public transport I started to touch women's ass with my penis, which "method" I used on my classmates for a short while in my freshman year in high school. I never did that again ever since I was like 14 and never will, it would make me sick of myself.
But the real thing I was doing in all my high school years was just photographing girls asses as they walked anywhere in the high school building and then get home and jerk off... I have been doing the same thing with complete strangers ever since then. I decided: today has to be the last time I did that sh*t. I was in a shopping center today (and in a hurry), but a girl's big round butt couldn't get me anywhere I just had to turn back, pick out my cellphone and I had to record that beauty. I followed her, and so her girl friend too, who I think was aware after a while, that I was stalking her friend. As we exited the mall I rather took the bus home, instead of following them. So technically I didn't let my dick control me, but I don't regret it now of course.
I never had a girlfriend. I was on a few dates this year for the first time and it looks like I'll have some more this year. But I f*d my past and it's still haunting me. If I had a girlfriend and a sex life (which I don't have, cause I'm a virgin) I know my perverted tendencies would not define as much (with girls) anymore, though they would still be there.
You might think I'm mentally unstable or something. I'm not. If there is one thing I adore is women. My deepest desire is simply to love someone, not sex, or one night stand with 5star party girls...
So I'm just curious of what others think of my case, I welcome any comment and thanks in advance!

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  • DADNSCAL
    2 years ago

    At least you know what you doc was wrong. You need to channel your urges to real women. There’s many who love their big butts worshipped.

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  • Imdeadinside573
    7 years ago

    It's okay bro, I stalked several girls, and I stopped immediately after I realized what I was doing. I think that your post is reasonable and coming from a previous stalker, (who is definitely not a 12 year old) it is very easy to get lost within yourself. After the one who you stalked knows you stalked them, your life goes down the damn toilet. Trust me. One simple step, when you get the urge, just repeat a saying in your head to tell yourself no (like stalking is bad, and it will ruin my life) repeat it about 20 times, and in no time your life will be back on track

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  • Terence_the_viking
    11 years ago

    I think if you had a girlfriend it would stop because then you'd have your own arse to do with anything.

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