How to stop suspecting people hate me?
I am quite insecure about myself, but I am able to feign enough confidence to mask it well, however I sometimes am sure that my friends just "bare me" and don't truly like me or that they are trying to avoid me, that my coworkers see me as an idiot, and the thoughts of disloyalness and that my partner hadn't truly loved me also plagued all of the relationships I had, to the point I don't want a relationship because I don't want those thoughts to come back. I know going to a psychologist or a psychiatrist is advised but I have neither the money for that nor the will to let my rights be removed or have the stigma that mentally ill people have. I am not really sure what I even want, this is just an anonymous vent.