I am afraid of social situations because i think i'm too boring?
I get really scared, nervous, and anxious whenever I have to be in a situation with people who are around my age group or older than me. With people who are much younger I feel more relaxed and comfortable like I can just be weird and socially awkward and they will just think I'm like that creepy older relative that everyone has. But around everyone else it's as if there are all these expectations about how people want you to act a certain way. I keep thinking that I should appear to be funny, intelligent, interesting, knowledgable about many things, maybe sometimes sarcastic, generally keep the conversation flowing when it seems to be stalling, and also pay attention to the other person's or people's emotions and body language. And at the same time I should have plenty of cool stories to share about my own experiences and experiences with family and friends, as well as my personal views on things. You know...it's like there is just too much pressure to appear a certain way in social situations. I think this would all be a lot easier if I actually had some friends and was an interesting person who was fun to be around and had lots of good experiences, but the truth is that I don't have friends, I don't have any stories to share about myself or my friends or family, I haven't really experienced much in my life and all of this makes me an incredibly boring person. I honestly don't feel like I know anything about anything to be able to have a decent conversation about it. So when I am put into a situation where I have to pretend to be social I just don't know what to do, I get stressed out, other people I'm with start to feel uncomfortable because they can tell I'm being unnatural and awkward. And I just want to run away and not have to deal with other people expecting me to be a certain way. I wish I could just blend into a crowd and not have to deal with any of this.