I am an atheist, yet i want to experience god as much as possible.
I am a scientist and an atheist (agnostic). I am extremely sceptical and I enjoy learning about all the kinds of nonsense inside my own (and others') mind(s).
But at the same time I am obsessed with experiencing divinity. It started when I got consistent with my practice in meditation and yoga. It got worse when I also got into high doses of LSD.
Am I normal?