I am disgusting

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I feel ashamed for this and I feel that I will go to hell for this I want to be dominated by a white woman I want to be utterly humiliated. Like I mean I really want to be dominated by her in the most graphic way that you can think of I want her to hurt me beyond description.

If it a white woman who is older than me I want her to treat me like an abused step child and if she is near my age I want her to treat me like trash.

An example I have dreams of Lana from red ice tv violating/beating the crap out of me and calling me every derogatory name under the sun. I'm gross because it only gets deeper and deprived I often hit myself with a belt until my skin is red and I imagine that it's a white woman beating me.

I want to be a slave to white woman I don't know why but I really want to be one and I'm ashamed for feeling this way because it's clearly not normal to want what I want.

No real man would want what I want and I dishonor my ancestors for wanting to be subjugated and degraded.

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RoseIsabella

4 years ago

I think it's disgusting how many people don't know the difference between then, and than.

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- SwickDinging
  
  4 years ago
  
  Omg, I know. That annoyed me as well.
  
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  - RoseIsabella
    
    4 years ago
    
    A couple of years ago I had a college Spanish professor who would not only grade Spanish grammar, but English grammar just because she could. I miss her vibe.
    
    I really only had two complaints, she didn't approve of y'all, and ain't, because she was from New York. Otherwise I really appreciated her approach to grammar. The world needs more people like this profesora!
    
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cupcake_wants

4 years ago

Some guys do have fantasies of such a thing. They get off on being humiliated. Don't feel so ashamed just let it be your pretend fantasy world. You could do it like role play pretend.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  4 years ago
  
  But it makes me feel awful for wanting that it feels like I'm playing into the stereotype of being subservient to whites. It's a disgrace to my people.
  
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  - Clunk42
    
    4 years ago
    
    My guess is that you're attracted to whites, so that is the skin color of those in your fantasies. It has nothing to do with "being subservient to whites." It's not a "diagrace to [your] people," whoever they may be. Also, there is no such stereotype; how do you define "stereotype"?
    
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    - Anonymous Post Author
      
      4 years ago
      
      It's not just the skin color it's also how they look and the fact that I get off on the prospect of white women destroying me. I find it wrong that I'd want to be treated poorly and humiliated. It's beyond gross that I get off on the prospect it's bad enough that my race is seen as the lowest of the low.
      
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      - Clunk42
        
        4 years ago
        
        1. Fantasizing about that is normal.
        
        2. BDSM is normal.
        
        3. No one cares about your race besides bigots and idiots.
        
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        Anonymous Post Author
        
        4 years ago
        
        My desire is for a white woman to not only dominate me but being racist while doing it. It's a gross fetish and not normal.
        
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  - cupcake_wants
    
    4 years ago
    
    I agree with Clunk. Don't make it about race or anything, it's about SEX!
    
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    - Anonymous Post Author
      
      4 years ago
      
      It's not just about sex I fantasize about a white woman making me a slave 100%. Like I want her to beat me raw to keep going even if I beg her to stop. I think even white women would find that pathetic or down right creepy that I would want that.
      
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Fugazi,again

4 years ago

If you were a girl this would be hot

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momgetthecamera

4 years ago

Your desires don't say who you are as a person. To find who you really are, make your spirit independent from the flesh. Stop watching p0rnography, stop ma3turbating. You can overcome it. You are not disgusting, but you may be stressed, anxious, or been hurt, so you are having perv3rted thoughts. Hating your self makes it worse. Remember who you are and what you have achieved.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  4 years ago
  
  Thank you for the advice but I don't watch porn I do read erotic literature I don't masturbate constantly I do take breaks. it's really hard to get the idea out of my head.
  
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Iamawesomedog

4 years ago

There are women who fetishize being sex slave house wives when women have been fighting for rights, and media seems mighty fine with them. Using that logic, you don’t have any problems. You’re not disgusting for having fetishes of oppression, but please remember to evaluate yourself. Do you want to get abused because you think you deserve it or because you enjoy it? I believe, and this applies to anyone who wants to be degraded, whether it’s BDSM, role play, or whatever the hell, that you should think about if this stems from a low self esteem, and really get that self esteem up.
Also, don’t say you’re not a real man, if submissive men were not real men, then me and all them other female doms would be gay.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  4 years ago
  
  also it seems kind of gay that I'd want a woman to fuck me in the ass.
  
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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  4 years ago
  
  I don't know a part of me enjoys the idea of a white woman treating me like dirt. I have dreams of one holding me down on top of my back and pounding me in the ass with a strap on all the while calling me names. It's really fucked up and not normal I'm not sure why I want that.
  
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  - Iamawesomedog
    
    4 years ago
    
    That’s not abnormal. Pegging has a huge fanbase.
    
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    - Anonymous Post Author
      
      4 years ago
      
      I know it dose and I think that it is gayish not for the woman for the woman it's clearly a power thing. but for the dude to want that says that he has some problems. I at least admit that I have a problem because it crazy that I want that.
      
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      - Iamawesomedog
        
        4 years ago
        
        Pegging is not always a power thing, though, some guys just enjoy the stimulation. If people enjoy power imbalances during sex and are having fun, than there is no problem. The only problem that occurs is when the stigma of what they’re doing ends up negatively affecting their wellbeing. Also, the term gay is often unfairly used to support a double standard that allows women to act outside of gender roles while averting men from nonconformity. Men should have the right to do what they enjoy just as much as women.
        
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Aethylfritha

4 years ago

Were all disgusting. You like what you like.
Dont parade your vices in the streets and we can all live with that.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  4 years ago
  
  That's why I posted it here.
  
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leggs91200

4 years ago

This is probably the weirdest thing I have read on IIN.

I mean Jesus H Christ, you think it is weird, humiliating, shameful etc? Get on fetlife, THERE you will see some weird stuff.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  4 years ago
  
  Yes I think it's weird shameful disgusting humiliating.
  
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[Old Memory]

4 years ago

I'm your white slave woman ready to dominate you and make you fuck me two and three times a day filling me with your yummy cum. I'll violate you, degrade you but we will have amazing sex.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  4 years ago
  
  I feel very wrong for reading what you posted. don't you feel wrong for posting what you posted? I'll be honest apart of me really wants to be under the complete control of a white woman but it's wrong.
  
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  - [Old Memory]
    
    4 years ago
    
    You'll never know how good it feels until you are under the control of me or any white woman. I/We can be very sexually controlling knowing as a woman what exactly turns a guy on and helping him fulfilling all his sexual needs.
    
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    - Anonymous Post Author
      
      4 years ago
      
      I feel that your trolling me.
      
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FromTheSouthWeirdMan

4 years ago

Lol you dishonor your ancestors? Our ancestors were living in mud houses and fucking their prepubescent sisters. Do what you want

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  4 years ago
  
  No I'm saying that I dishonor my ancestors because many of them were enslaved and tortured by Europeans not all Europeans did it's just you know history. My great granny must be puking in her grave I know my parents and grandparents would be angry if they figure out what Gose on in my sick head. I am a disgrace to my family and my people hell im a disgrace as a man.
  
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  - FromTheSouthWeirdMan
    
    4 years ago
    
    I guess I can't relate because I only met my great grandmother once and dont really care about what my acestors think or did. I met her once
    Thats why you like it because its so taboo to you. If it were normal it wouldn't be as exciting I guess.
    
    What you dont think about is white people today did not enslave anyone. Less than 3% of whites in slavery times even had slaves. They were only for the elites and whites were slaves too. You gotta realize you were never a slave. You benefitted from your ancestors being brought over here because you'd be living im a 3rd world country right now.
    
    Fuck all that pity party slavery garbage. No one today has had a slave and no one was a slave. We all crybaby about ancestors and shit when we are living in the richest country in the world. The majority of Africa aint got electricty and plumbing and healthcare. The majority of europe is crybaby liberal land. Thank god we are in America. So go. Go buy guns. Stand for the anthem. Cuss the president because its your right. Do America stuff now.
    
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    - Anonymous Post Author
      
      4 years ago
      
      I'm not crying about slavery im proud to be an American I'm just disgusted with myself you may not care about your ancestors but I care about mine also I'm disgusted that I as a man wants to degrade my self worth I don't want to be a beta. I CANT HELP HOW I FEEL and it's a disgrace that I have these urges and desires I'm a freak and it's a shame that me as a human being would want to be used and abused on a racial level.
      
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      - FromTheSouthWeirdMan
        
        4 years ago
        
        But what you need to understand about your ancestors is they couldnt reeeaad man. They weren't brought over here to decipher the laws of physics and to teach us how to split the atom. They were brought over here to be robots. They were very stupid ppl. Thats why they were picking cotton. Im pretty sure they hadnt even invented the wheel yet
        
        Our ancestors were both very dumb man. Half of them died on the boat ride here. Then when they got here they realized no one else was out here so they had to fuck their sisters. There's nothing to be proud of. Our ancestors were retards man. They even bled George Washington to death thinking it would make him better. They literally slit that niggas throat to fix him... LOL
        
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        Anonymous Post Author
        
        4 years ago
        
        I did say that I'm not focused on the slave aspect of it plus not all slaves were brain dead you know certain parts of Africa had civilizations. Yeah they weren't advanced as Europe but they weren't savages most slaves were from either defeated tribes nations kingdoms or empires others were the outcasts that nobody wanted around and that varied then you had the backwards people that even the outcasts would spit on. It's werid that you insist that I care about their lifestyles I feel bad that they had to suffer simply because they were seen as inferior. While I'm proud to be an American I'm still cognitive enough to realize that no nation is perfect especially this country. Also the slave owners were breeding slaves with each other as far as I checked Africans didn't fuck siblings they did fuck cousins however but a lot of places across the planet did that.
        
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