I am pissed

I have an online friend who i love and all that stuff but she is kinda toxic. She has some toxic behaviors but honeslty i just think she is v tormented at home so i get where she comes from, so i never call her out in an agressive way, just try to explain to her what i think would be the healthiest way to cope/do stuff.
Now i said ONE thing that was bad, and i told her i know it's bad, that it's toxic. It's a toxic thought i have but i won't put it out in the world, i won't act on it. Because that would hurt people. And she was sooooo quick to tell me that it was horrible and that i should never think like that. Like ... bro. I just told u i know. I can't control my thoughts. I can control my actions, and that's what i try my best to do.
And i wouldn't even care if it was just taht but when she is sad or just in a bad mood i always have to be careful of what i say and what i do and i always try to help her with her stuff as quick as i can. Oh but god forgive me if i say that i am sad or moody. She sometimes tries to help, or at least she used to. Because it has happened two times already, 2 fucking times in which i went to talk to her bc i was in a bad state and she just didn't reply until next day and even didn't bother to answer and started a new conversation.
I am pissed, that's all.
Like what the fuck dude