I can't figure out if i am gay?
The question of "am I gay" has always been on my mind and because of that it causes me so much stress. When I am speaking to guys I focus on and can't tell if it's cuz I want to be their friend or their boyfriend.
Yesterday there was a moment when a guy was flirting with me and I Felt very nervous, while talking my thoughts Were completely lost And I questioned myself greatly asking myself "What if I liked it". At the same time as this thought I was also thinking that I needed to get out of there, and was a little scared the man was going to follow me. After the moment I still didn't know if Onwas gay and felt gross, sad and out of place thinking of the possibility of being gay.After this incident I began to think that the only way to get rip of this homosexuality fear was to try having gay experiences.Although I do not want to do so very much, I feel it will help alleviate my stress and would help me figure myself out.