I don't have any friends and i have a chronic illness

I've been ill for years physically can't leave the house because I have severe M.E and only leave the house to see doctors.

Friends left they don't seem to care. Lonely and haven't enjoyed my youth. Almost middle aged now never went out in my 20s or 30s. I know I'm too old to enjoy youth now even if I get better too so that's sad. I do hope one day I get better but it's been many many years of isolation.

I'm waiting to enjoy life and see everyone having fun while I'm always stuck inside. :/ just venting sorry not asking if it's normal