I don't have complete control over my brain
When I walk I imagine there is a rope tied around my ankle with a ball on the end. I can feel it and need to swing the ball around. It's really annoying because I can't get rid of it no matter how hard I try.
Also, I have to get a certain amount of steps in each block of cement on the sidewalk.
Another thing I do is scrape the corners of my mouth with my thumb nail and I have to do it the same number of times on both sides so it's equal.
Pretty much anytime I do something that doesn't feel equal I need to make equal. If I stepped on a smooth surface with one foot I will have to do it to the other foot too.
There's also this thing where whenever I'm in the shower, every time I get my face wet I have to open the shower curtain and look around my bathroom because a demon will get me if I don't.
These are just a few of the many things that happen in my brain that I can't control.
I have always been like this so I never thought anything of it, I actually can't imagine not being like this. I'm not sure if other people are like this though and I want to know if it is normal. It's really frustrating not being able to control my thoughts. I waste so much time that I could spend doing other things on this.