I don't like to take photos of myself. iin?
I have this weird thing about taking photos of myself or putting photos of myself on my profiles. I feel like if I did it, that it would be narcissistic of me. It really makes me uncomfortable and I also have a problem when people take photos of me. It makes me feel violated and as if a part of my soul was stolen. I hate the way I look so, maybe that's the problem? When, I do take photos I try to make sure that nothing of me can be seen. I'm kind of worried about people seeing my skin colour. I'm not a racist or anything, but I feel like my friends online might be disappointed in me, if they saw that I looked different from what they might have expected me to look.
If I get a part of me in a photo, than I try my best to alter it and change the colour. For instance, I often put the scene on something light and the effect on something of an completely different colour. I love to put it on Cyanotype. It sometimes works, but there are times when I'm worried that it didn't work at all...
Is this fear of mine normal?