I don't look so good

My sleepy eyes in the morning look terrible, like I need a coffee. And when I talk sex in a toilet there's a stranger who makes a lot of trouble for it, therefore it's not a good look. Am I a trouble maker? Yes, but by letting trouble happen to troublesome things doesn't make you exactly the nice guy about trouble. I'm saying you're not a trouble maker, a violation of justice makes you get a bad reaction. It's bloody childish to do things and get in trouble and then be so proud of your morals and the next day you try something else that will get you in trouble, it certainly doesn't look good when my roommate is being screamed at. But this is about myself. So let's focus on why my looking cool doesn't look good: it's silly, foolish, not considering the consequences, wild human behaviour at 18 years old before I was tamed. Morality made me soft, it made me sweet, I was a wild tiger before, not some tame beast. No one was born sweet and loving. Gross! If you walk on the wild side you really walk on the wild side, untamed. What guy can tame a teenager? I hate to admit it but at 18 I was a typical teenager, some of that stuff the ideals of a teenager, my hair was wild and spiky and weird, it wasn't normal hair, and the folly of my youth was quirky. As a mental patient I was eccentric and in the toilet talking of sex was eccentric. I wasn't a bad guy. Weird as it seems the case, what I wanted subconsciously was to be cool like a teenager, not weird. It's simple, what I did was even dressing like a 14 year old, hippie like I was in high school when I didn't want to be normal.