I don't want to be gay
I still like girls it's just they are slowly losing their appeal sexually even though I can't imagine myself with anything else romantically. It's not like I can't get off to girls it's just that I don't really enjoy it as much. I can't help it girly boys are just so much more attractive, especially if you prefer to be fucked rather than fuck, but I have a really hard time with the way boys tend to be emotionally and I don't really know what I want from life.
I have been told by several people that I'd be better off with some twink or trans girl and they're probably right but I don't know I'm torn with multiple conflicting wants shearing against each other.