I feel i fucked up my life so badly that i'm far behind people my age

Since I was 20 I got arrested for a DUI which was a misdemeanor, I tend to make fucked up decisions because I'm so fucking impulsive! I also associate with the wrong people which are a bad influence on me. In 2014 I got arrested again on a felony charge and resisting arrest. I got the felony charges dropped recently. I also got in trouble so many times at my university, I'm still currently suspended and was only suspended until this December but a previous decision came back and bit me in the ass and my university found out and I'm currently waiting if I am now allowed back to my university and or if I am expelled. I'm a junior and it's so fucked up because I literally have 102 credits under my belt at the moment and if I can't go back it would have been such a waste of my time! It's been over 2 months and still waiting to hear back from the head of the student conduct. I just got this sales job and I have my own place which I'm renting out. I have no car at the moment because when I had my car 3 or 4 years ago insurances were reluctant to insuring me because of my DUI. I got into a car accident literally after 3 weeks of having it so stupid and fucked up. The bystanders aka witnesses said I was in a daze; nobody was critically injured. Two weeks before my probation was up on my felony charges I got a letter in the mail stating from 5 years ago I needed an FR44 Insurance which was a glitch in the system for the 5 years! In those 5 years, I got insured and had my car for not even 3 fucking weeks before wrecking my green honda. I'm 25 now reflecting on my life and i feel like i fucked up so much where when I repair it i will be so far behind people my age let alone the most scariest part of it all I feel like I will be alone in life and when I find the girl I really want to start a life with will think I'm a loser and a fuck up which I don't blame the girl who I want to be with if she uncovered and found out my history and figured me out. I've been told I'm not a bad looking guy but what's the point where I feel realistically I'm going to be a loner and have to learn to acclimate myself to being one. It's so fucked up, when I have the cash I try to stay high as often as I can to forget how fucked up my life is. I'm writing this sober which i fucking hate being sober! It's to a point where I'm trying to not fuck up and trying to get my life back on track but I'm lonely and it fucking sucks! It's to a point where even if I try to satisfy my love life needs it won't even work out because obviously, you need a car, money, and your own place. I do come from an upper middle-class family. My family has money but that's not the point. I feel like I have to lie and make up excuses to justify my fucked up situation and I just feel like what's the point of dating a beautiful girl when all I can do at this point is to cover the truth and to justify my situation to a potential girlfriend it's fucking embarrassing which is why I feel like and why I kind of think currently what's the point eventually ms. right will sooner or later figure it out and she'll probably realize how much of a fuck up loser I am! Overall, I feel like by the time all is said and done regarding finishing repairing my life from all my fuck up's it will be too late and people my age now when and if I can repair it will be too late. All I want to do is to stay high and numb myself. I have no confidence but I fake it in public to an extent, I have social anxiety don't know what to say to girls I like. I don't know what to do anymore. I know by the time I repair my life I will be so far behind people at my age by then. My question: Is my life so fucked up to the point by the time of finishing catching up and repairing my life can I still catch up to people my age at that point in my life. Oh, I also recently cut off 2 of my friends who when I move up in life they somehow fuck it up for me which is partially my fault which I take full responsibility for.