I feel like i have forgotten how to have fun
Hello all,
I am 31 and cringe at the sound of myself stating that I am in an uncategorized relationship with a woman that is about 25yrs older than I. For me I feel old and used up to the point I have forgotten how to have fun or make anything enjoyable for myself or others. Nothing seems to be "FUN" or "Enjoyable" anymore it all just seems well for a lack of better words "shitty". I have lost almost all of my friends due to life/location changes, Alcohol/Drug addictions EX. Stealing from me to support their problems or other various treasonist acts. I feel like life has lost it's "Spark" and I have done all that I can afford to do and I don't know what to do to fix this. I live in the middle of nowhere which is great most of the time (low crime rates) but sucks when I want to get out and try to have fun because nothing's ever going on and when it is I am surrounded by country bumpkins and that's all they know and listen to and I don't. I used to love to party (drinking was actually fun) Then soon became very boring and pointless. At this point I have no answers for myself and feel lost. I dunno maybe I have just become a cynical asshole.