I feel like like life isn't real. it's all just inside my head.

I like to watch gerbils fight each other.

I have a thousand different thoughts on what reality is every day. And be careful. I think most of your thoughts are valid but smoking weed can cause derealization. I've seen it mentioned enough times on this site and I experience myself with and without it. I don't things are as they seem, and maybe we are not the only ones either. I think people push it away. Whatever it is. Whether it's the possibility of a God, or that the universe may be ultimately cruel, or that none of us are really good, or that animals can think and perceive, or that all our personal decisions affect those around us, our friends and family and will ripple into the rest of human history. But how often should I think about these things instead of just enjoying this reality, whatever it is. Yes somethings seem too perfect to be real, or to horrible to be true, but yet they exist. Fact is you will likely never have the exact truth.

I would take a break from smoking pot to see if your thoughts are validated by what you see and perceive and not so much by how you feel under the influence. And don't tell me enlightenment can only be found through smoking a damn plant.

TLDR; You are not alone.

The world Is an inception....

And the truth shall set you free.

I dont smoke pot but i KNOW the feeling. I question reality like everyday. I suppose we just want answers right? What if this is all a test? What if its all in my head? I think society is pretty fucked up if a good percentage of population is thinking this way

Pease look depersonalization/derealization disorder, OP

Watch the spanish movie called Open Your Eyes. Not the gay vanilla sky remake.

I used to have that thought too but I got out of it by realising that I would have to be the smartest person in the world for that to be true since you cant really conjure up someone who is smarter than you inside of your head.

You clearly have solipsism syndrome, look it up

Yeah I completely agree with you guys. I wasn't trying to say enlightenment can be reached only through mind altering drugs or anything like that, and I also wasn't saying that people are apathetic, I was just explaining my own observations and trying to understand why so few people show their interest in consciousness or the universe. I agree that no one should live life stuck pondering the meaning of their own existence without ever enjoying reality for what it is. I'm just stuck in this endless cycle of over thinking everything and I don't know how to quiet my mind. I agree with you Anime7, thinking about these things gets you nowhere and even once you have reached a realization, nothing has really changed. So i guess there's my answer, there just really is no point to thinking about these things, because they get you nowhere and your still stuck in the same place you were before. It's such a claustrophobic feeling!

Just because the universe is interesting, does not mean that your own life is. I get where you're coming from, and yeah this life and the people are totally great. But what's a life if you're trapped in a system that requires to educate yourself, obtain a job, and follow whatever social norms dictate. People are apathetic because they realize there isn't much they can do to fight the system. However, just because they're apathetic, does not mean that they are ignorant. Plenty of people can fathom the unfathomable size of the universe, the possibility of other organic life, and the idea that they are an organism comprised by billions of bacterias all working so fluidly that you can function as one single unit. Yet what good does any of this do? I mean really, unless you're going to profit off this idea or find a way to turn into some sort of adventure, what good is this way of though? I'm not trying to limit people from being curious or amazed by science, but if you're not going to pursue it into anything then its simply just a thought. It's no different that saying "oh I could've done that" well you didn't. People have the potential to understand things, but perhaps not the time, money, or energy. Realizations don't really give you much to do. It's good that you can fathom the immensities in this world, but there isn't really anything you can do with that information, unless you plan to study it further and try to make a profit or go on an adventure with it.

TLDR: You can't call people apathetic simply because they aren't as excited about something as you. Also even if your life was fake, you wouldn't know it, so pondering about it wouldn't do you any good, or rather wouldn't get you anywhere.