I hate facial hair

I am comfortable with my body hair and head hair and they don't bother me at all but I hate my facial hair. I developed thick and rough facial hair when I was just 17 year old. It grows so fast that I can't see myself clean shaved. It always has a stubble. I don't like the way I look with it. When I grow it is tickling and uncomfortable. When it's short is tickling and uncomfortable because I have sensitive skin and this make me easy feel it. Especially when I lay down. I wake up every morning tickling sensation and itchiness on my neck. I hate shaving with manual razors because the budget for it is expensive and because my facial hair gets stuck in them and I need extra water to clean them. They wear out fast and always and always have to buy a new one. I use electric razor now but my neck skin react really bad to it and I don't get as smooth as with manual razor and the stubble is more uncomfortable. I am jelaus of people that don't grow a beard and grow sparse facial hair that grows slowly. They are so blessed and I wish I was in their shoes. I see many men do grow facial hair as mine that I had in 8th grade when I was 14. Back then I used to shave once a week or even less and used to never think about it or be annoyed by it. If I take a photo of my face you will be able to see how much active follicles I have. My entire cheeks are growing fur and I have terminal hairs all over my neck. I used to love the fact that I was born a male until 11th grade. Then I started more and more to wish that I was born a girl so I don't grow a beard. They don't grow beards except in extraordinary cases. I am planning to get a wax at least get rid of this shit for 3-4 weeks a month.