I have a giant crush on my boss. i hate myself for being gay

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I've to let this out of my system since I can't vent in real life. This shit is so frustrating but I just couldn't help myself from falling in love with someone. My boss is attractive, charismatic, funny, clever and happy-go-lucky type of person. He's the epitome of perfection in my eyes.

Nobody in my workplace knows I am fucking gay for my boss and I live in a place where being gay is oppressed, in general. I always desire for his attentions and when I do get them, my day feels brightened so much it's unreal. I always do stupid things just for the sake of getting his attentions.

I am ashamed to admit this despite being an anonymous but I secretly imagine my sexy time with him when I masturbated. Whoever his wife is, I envy her so damn much.

I genuinely fucking hate myself for being gay. I feel like a sore loser for being swayed by my own sexuality. I never ask to be born this way and to have a giant crush on him.

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  • Somenormie
    2 years ago

    It's alright to be gay, you should ask if you can smash him.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      2 years ago

      In the society I live in, it's not. My boss and pretty much all the colleagues at my workplace are so damn straight and are already married. I am asking for huge trouble if I followed your advice on simply asking to smash him.

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      • Somenormie
        2 years ago

        I was completely joking about smashing him, please don't actually do that.

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          2 years ago

          Don't worry. Even if you're serious about it, I still won't even have the slightest balls to ask about smashing him, lmao.

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  • SkullsNRoses
    2 years ago

    Where do you live, for context? Is being gay illegal or just frowned upon?

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  • 1WeirdGuy
    2 years ago

    Having a crush is fine but if your boss isnt gay don't even try anything. There's nothing as uncomfortable as having gay people hit on you when you are a straight man.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      2 years ago

      Of course I don't even plan on trying something like hitting on him since the beginning. It's a secret crush after all. Also, I am personally not ok with having an accidental giant crush on him. I can't stop thinking about him and I occassionally get distracted as I fantasized about him during work. I wish this feeling towards him can wane on an instant because I certainly don't appreciate it.

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