I have made only mistakes in myl ife
Nobody loves me.
Im a weird autisitc woman who has pushed everyone away.
Ive had plenty of men whos been attracted to me because I take good care of myself but I pushed them away.
I am terrified of intimacy. I CANNT imafine anyone would really love me.
I have zero friends and its pahtethic.
I made a merry christmas post on facebook to prove it and it proved me right, nobyd liked or responded to it.
The only person on my new job who wants to befriend me is a damn downs syndrome whoman with them mentaily of a 14 vyear old at most!
The others at work make fun of her to me and call her annoying but I actually like her shes nice and funny.
What does that say about ne?!
(Sorry if the spelling is bad imd drunk?)
I used to be afraid of downs drynome peopel when I was younger btu I was very sdumbm.
I wish everyone didnt think I was so mean and bithcy.
In school when I was younger the other girls called me cbitch because I "refused to ftalk to them" but I just couldnt make words come out.
I ddidnt mean to be soquiet and boring :(
Is there ever hope for me :(