I keep having nightmares where i have a penis?

I am female. Now and then I have dreams where I have a penis. For the most part these dreams scare the crap out of me (and not many dreams do anymore). The first time I ever dreamed about it, I dreamed that my brother had sown it onto my skin... it was like rolled up sandwich meat and I was trying to tear it off.

Another time, though, I was fine with it... it wasn't like stitched together sandwich meat then, it was actually "mine", but it was so long that I literally tossed it over my shoulder so it was kind of funny to me.

But last night I dreamed about having a penis again. It was "mine" aka natural or whatever and big but not comically huge... but like the first time I hated it and I wanted it gone. Worse, (This is gross btw) there like a pimple on it or on my thigh or something and I picked/squeezed the pimple and all of this clear fluid gushed out and filled up a large glass and I heated up the liquid (idk why) and then dumped out the cup but there was stuff left behind and it was hatching little maggots. All of these maggots. My god. The maggots had been in my skin??? I woke up so grossed out I still don't even know what to think.

In real life I am female, grey asexual, but romantically attracted to women. Men + sex or me + sex in real life freaks me the hell out. I actually write male-on-male porn and that's as far as that goes. I hate these recurring dreams but I think maybe it's time I try to figure out what they mean so I can put it to rest?

On the bright side, tho, at least dream-me has a huge dong. :'3