I like to torture my pet cat frequently
I'm a 20 yo female and I have 2 cat pets that I love them but i tend to torture the younger one. first I did it because he pissed me off with his meows it sounded as if he was annoyed/being hurt by me when the thing I did was only pat/kiss him. later on he he started to piss me off even more when he jumps at tables and throw everything that's when I started to mostly choke him and throw him hard on the ground and I did it only when he has done "faults". at first I felt SO guilty but as time passes now I feel pleasure when I hear his screams and know he is in pain. sometimes I lean to kiss him and then when he starts to meow I kiss him as hard as I can to chock him. I never wish to kill him but he indeed piss me off a lot even though I like him and find him very cute I don't know why.
PS: I don't do the same to the other cat. Like I kiss him hard too sometimes but he never meows or say anything so I stop because he doesn't piss me.