I'm a christian because i don't want to go to hell
For starters, I have my reasons for believing in God, and in Christianity specifically. I've heard the ol' "Why would you serve a God like that?"
I can't afford to piss off an all powerful being, that's why. Btw, this view point is supported by the Bible. Check Romans 9, especially verse 20-
https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Romans+9&version=NIV
Sometimes, I think about all the innocent and helpless, suffering and dying, all the things that God dislikes, but still allows to happen at the moment.
I saw a Christian relative suffer horribly and die. When I think about these things, I'm grateful that I'm not angry at God for them.
Instead, I feel a sense of awe. Just what kind of being could watch all of the horror happening in the entire universe, and not step in all time? Even the most emotionally hardened of humans might find this difficult.
People get angry at God because they don't realize the way things are. We're not entitled to anything from God, and our ideas of what love is are different from his. For God said, "My ways are not your ways, neither are my thoughts your thoughts."
God is rather benevolent, when you think about it. All of us could be experiencing horrors beyond our imaginations, if he willed it at this very second. Instead, he's been very gracious in providing us with salvation through his son.
The wise thing to do, I believe, is to humbly accept God's grace, and live as sincerely and kindly towards the living things he created as possible.
God created everything, and all of us simply because he wanted to.
I see creation almost like God's giant sandbox. We're the toys in it. And as a toy has no power whether a child breaks or cares for it, so we have no power over God.
And if this is God's sandbox, then he has drawn a line in the sand. It's better to be on the correct side.
I've found myself both laughing in despair, and crying my hardest over this realization.
Death has a serene appeal to me, because broken toys don't get played with. In life, on one side of humanity has been the wiles of Satan, and on the other, the grace of God.
The grave seems to be the only place, other than heaven, where humans rest away from those warring forces.
I see history, right now, and the future, as parts of God's massive play. We humans are created in God's image, and some of our behaviors mimic his. We always like conflict in a story to make it interesting. The conflicting force against humanity and God is Satan.
Parts of this post may seem presumptuous, and I apologize before God and humans if so.
If not for God's entertainment and pleasure, what would be the purpose of creating anything? It only took one angel in the book of Revelation to lock Satan away for a thousand years, and yet, God still wars with him in some chapters.
It's certainly more interesting that way, isn't it?