I'm addicted to having mixed children

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Endless hours of me on Instagram looking at @beautifulmixedkids
@mixedracebabies
I really can't stop. I'm addicted to mixed kids and I really don't know why. I'm an 18 year old black female and everytime I see a mixed person I just shoot up and look at their skin, eyes and hair. They look amazing and I'm not by all means saying that other races are not. They just stand out to me the most. I told my friends this and they said

' Urrgh why do you wanna go with a white person? Dark skins are the best' or

'At least light-skinned or mixed race. But white? I'm disappointed in you'

'Good luck when you're having sex, because with that small dick up in your wall, you're getting nowhere in life'

'Having sex with a white man is like a vagina-vagina sex thing'

'#lesbiansex'

'You're child is gonna be so ugly'

'Nevermind how your children are gonna look now. Imagine how they'll look like when they're grannies/grandpa'

It makes me kind of sad but that's not even what I'm worried about. I'm not looking for a Blasian/Afrasian child even though they're hella cute. White and black is what I cherish the most. I don't just like white people because of their skin colour, but the ones I know are so kind and generous. Filled with good hearts. Black boys are very cute, and light-skin/mix-race are drop dead gorgeous, but white boys are adorably dashing and handsome. I always have this fantasy of me married with a white man and having children with him. They would have blue/green eyes and curly blonde hair and fair skin. That's what I'm praying for. But if not that then I really don't care how my child looks, I just wanna shower them with love and teach them well for their future. But that's my preference. This has been going on for 4 years. Black kids are cute but their not my interest. To be honest all races are attracted to me. But white men are in my eyes.

But I have to say, social media is part of the problem. If there was an account that said @beautifulwhitekids
@beautifulasiankids
@beautifulblackkids then this wouldn't be the case. Yeah of course it's beautiful to be mixed with different countries of the world but it puts so many things inside people's head that aren't necessary. One of my friends said

' I'm marrying a pure white man and I don't care what anyone says. I don't want to marry any other man with a different skin colour apart from white. The reason is that I want to have mixed children so then they marry a white person and they marry a white person and they can keep doing that until all my descendants are white and can look back and say they had a black grandma'

I'm 50/50 with that idea.
Honestly though mixed people aren't any more special than us and it's sad to see that the society(hence me) are so focused on them. They aren't any different from us. They are human as well so people should stop treating them as superiors. It makes people of other races not appreciate where they're from so they'd do anything to make their child mixed.
The other reason why I'm addicted to mixed children is that NO-ONE in my family is mixed. We have a few light-skinned but they're not mixed. The oldest member of my family is 120 and still living but he's not mixed. No-one in my family has married another person from a different race. I'm Ghanaian-American and us Ghanaians don't do a lot of mixing so this is also why I want to bring it in my family. Desperately. I'm really addicted. I want them so bad. No judging about this. All I need is advice to stop the need of wanting mixed children sooo bad. I want to stop this. Please help