I'm dead + rotting

Google Cotard Syndrome. It sounds textbook Cotard Syndrome. It is a mental illness in which you believe you are dead, certain organs have disintegrated, or that you are putrifying.

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Look dude, you probably have something up in your head. Maybe it's Cotard Delusion, maybe it's brain damage.

But, it doesn't make you "crazy".

See, crazy is loaded word. It's derogatory, but it refers to a state of illness. And we can see what this stigma does - you react to people saying "go to a psychiatrist" with "it's for crazy people, I'm not crazy".

There is no shame in being ill. I can only imagine how terrifying it would be to see your body rotting away. It's not any better just because "it's in your head". It's worse, because, as you said, people are leaving you over it. Another example of how much damage the "crazy" label can do.

If you were rotting in real life to the degree you describe, you would be long dead and/or people would notice. Think about it. Focus on this thought when you look at your body. It might be scary, it might invoke cognitive dissonance, but please, attempt to fight it.

Take good care of yourself. Please, eat regularly, wash yourself, get enough sleep.

And go to the psychiatrist.

I know it's scary beyond what most people who throw words like "crazy" and "psycho" can understand.

Get help. Please. For your own sake.

Look, eventually, you're going to have to come to one of three conclusions:
1. Every single person you talk to and show this issue to is lying to you.
2. The symptoms are real but you are the only person who can perceive them and everyone else except you experiences the delusion that you are alive and well.
3. You are experiencing a delusion consistent with cotard syndrome.

Chances are, everyone you know is not lying to you, nor are they experiencing mass hallucinations.

And as for the "I'm not crazy" argument,
1. How would you know? Delusions are indistinguishable from reality. That's kind of their whole schtick. As a result, the person least qualified to speak to whether or not an individual experiences them is the individual in question (that's you in this case). If you are seeing visual signs of decay on yourself that no one else is seeing, it might be time to take a hint. If doctors saw nearly any of the symptoms you described, you would be in crisis care at a hospital right now. There's a reason you aren't.

2. Look, from the way you react to comments on here and the fact that you refused to see a psychiatrist, it seems to me like the problem here is that you think that if you are experiencing delusions, something is lesser about you. Like there's some kind of "normal or crazy" dichotomy. Here's the thing, though: there​ isn't. Just like arthritis or high blood pressure or cancer, delusions are things that just happen to humans sometimes. Some folks get them from head trauma, some from chronic mental illness, some from extreme hunger or need to sleep, and some never get them at all. You wouldn't walk into a doctor's office complaining about pain and refuse to be tested for arthritis, would you? Why would you do the same here?

I don't think you're crazy but I think you maybe have some brain damage causing the delusion.

You're delusional, and in need of psychiatric care.

Have you ever suffered a head injury? If only you seem to notice then its probably in your head. Seek help.

Parasites. Always parasites.

You're not crazy. Your perception is different from everyone else's. People tell me I'm crazy all the time. A psychiatrist/therapist can help your rotting flesh. You just have to describe it to them. Fuck the money. You need to resurrect yourself. All things are possible. You just have to believe.

You're the only one who can fix yourself.

My cock is dead and rotting, in fact I think I'm starting to get a bit of gangrene on it. I showed it to the doctor. He confirmed that it it limp and worthless, but he said the gangrene is all in my head. The whole thing is pathetic.

I thought that on shooms before, because I could tasted decay cause my teeth are rottinf mayne you should see a dentist

Why does nobody say you are a troll?

If your skin really is rotting, it would be a pretty rare condition that I'm afraid no one on this website could help you with. However, if anyone could help you with a medical issue, it would be your doctor. Maybe you could visit your doctor, to let him know what's been going on.

Just go to a doctor. I really don't think you're skin is falling apart. Watch some Disney movies. Eat some cake. Watch some jackseipiceye or other youtubers. Stay calm. See a psychiatric even if you don't want to. It could help you out or it may not. Just give it a try. Take deep breaths. Try to get some sleep. Talk to your parents or gand parents. Tell them how you feel. I hope I could of been some help. Oh and have a great day 😊

It's because you have lost your soul. You need to go on a journey to go find it. Once you find it you will notice some feeling that you haven't been able to experience due to being souless, and you will be be able to be free.