I'm in love with my half-cousin and i can't stop thinking about her
Yup my half-uncle's daughter, I'm in love with her and I constantly think about her it's very annoying. We have been having sex for almost 6 YEARS! now. It's quite special and amazing because NO ONE knows about it but us two. I really feel like I'm in love with her and I think she does too. It sounds wrong but I can't help it.
I tried stopping it once because I feel like she's holding me back from other girls because I think were in love but we really haven't talked about our feelings toward each other which leaves me very confused. I do give her money from time to time which indeed leaves me feeling like I'm being used sometimes. But if that's the case then were using each other lol.
Therefore I told her I can't be "doing" it with her anymore, she asked why but I didn't explain myself. After that I felt weird and awkward around her at times and I could also tell she was trying to get me back at it because I read some hints on the way she talked and acted towards me.
I don't have any other girl that I "talk" to and I also lost my virginity to her so I feel like I'm attached to her mentally and physically. afterwards She turned "gay". After a while having no form of sex I just couldn't do it anymore I had this crazy urge to get back with her I did so, and surprisingly it was quite easy to do so. We had oral sex after that, well of course not on that same day. Now I'm here asking for advice and don't know what to do.