I'm not being accepted
If I'm conventional that means people have to accept me, but they're not accepting me and I'm not fitting in and I'm pissed off, I'm not getting general approval, I'm being hated. People don't even recognise my morals are objectively real, that they exist, and that feeling I get from hate is a heavy, humiliated, sorry-that-this-is-reality feeling. The haters hate me 100%, everything I do, there's none of me doing anything without a hater telling me these putdowns about me, has it ever occurred to you that I'm a nice guy, that I deserve respect, that I should be given some credit? Give me a break! There's so many haters and they will criticise me a lot, I don't feel good around these people and I'm pissed off, I'm pissed off that I'm not pleasing people, that no one sees me as good, prim and proper and that maybe in my good manners and poshness that I'm established, I'm following convention. Of all the manners in the world anyone who lives with me is giving me hell, they're not letting me live a blissfully normal life, they're trying to stop all this normalcy whatsoever, they're attacking it, they're bitching at me every time I'm normal, every time I have no uniqueness whatsoever, when I should be a popular man who fits in. I don't get it, why do people want to grind my normalcy to the dust, destroy it, get rid of it? I'm a nice person. Reality is disgustingly obscene, it causes you to cry! It's disgusting, it's inconsiderate, it's horrible, everyone hates me and I'm trying to be accepted and people won't accept me, they won't let me be normal!