I'm not feeling healthy

This is what I think, my diet's healthy but my sleep, ulcers and feelings aren't, I feel like life is always resisting me, people trying to destroy me. It's very, and I promise, complicated, as complications come about for no reason. My eyes aren't up to scratch, I end up feeling ill, and I'm feeling disappointed, upset, humiliated at this awful fate, based on my past which is rude, it's very rude and no one is having fun. They find me annoying.
I don't see the enjoyment in people having a go at me while I'm trying to watch tubi like a normal person watches movies with popcorn, instead I'm watching a documentary of bigfoot with a coffee. Do you see this isn't healthy, that a man is pissed off when I'm trying to have a good time like a regular guy?! It's certainly not any fun being a patriot when nobody likes you. I'm trying to have enjoyment and then I get heartburn ♥, I get these headaches and when I sleep in the day it's not healthy, I have no natural body functions left because the workers messed it up.