I'm so used to being disappointed that i dont ever belive anything good
Will happen?
I think it be a MIRACLE if one day I found someone who also felt that same strong connection who wanted me in their life like I do them. All my life with friends I gave my all, to only be fucking walked over/ditched, lied to or let down. I always made efforts and it's always me making most the effort. Well at age 26 now, I a SICK of this shit and I deserve waaay better. I am not placing effort into someone as much as I may want to EVER again. In fact I'm so used to dissapointment im numb and if someone amazing were to actually want me around and show it and prove it, I'll probably have a heart attack from the shock.