I miss my childhood extremely
Sometimes I miss my childhood. The feeling only comes once in a while, but when it does happen it's very intense. It usually drives me to tears.
Certain things can trigger it. For example, a song I hadn't heard in many years. My current episode was triggered when I closed my eyes while lying in bed and listened to the wind blowing through the trees outside. Suddenly I was reliving a moment from 11 years old, and I was overcome with emotion.
I miss the energy I had, and the happiness I got from the simplest of things... I wasn't as inhibited by anxiety. I miss my childhood friends. I've struggled to feel as comfortable with my peers in recent years. I miss the closeness and trust I had in my parents.
I remember feeling like adulthood was so far away, and that I would be a kid forever. Now adulthood is here, and I worry about my future almost every day.
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