I miss my doggy.

About three months ago, I lost my doggy to disease. After a long battle, she was finally in so much pain that I had no choice but to ask a vet to allow her to "die with dignity."

She was about 18 years old when she passed away, and I had her for about 14 of those years. During that time a lot of bad fortune befell me, and she was often my only friend in the hardest of times. Over the course of that time, then, she became my dearest friend, my closest companion, and in many ways like a child to me.

I waited too long to take her into the vet. Her last day was agony that still gives me nightmares.

Now, she's gone, and I'm heartbroken. Time passes, and I'm still grief-stricken. I cry almost every day. I curse a god I don't even believe in. I take my anger out on people who don't deserve to be treated that way, and I know better, but I just Hurt.

Nobody I know has had the bad taste to face me directly and say, "Dude, you need to chill out, it was just a dog." But sometimes, I fear that my reaction to her death is excessive. And even if it wasn't excessive for the first few days, maybe it is now.

It is normal? Is it normal to grieve so much over the loss of a pet, regardless of how close you were? How long is it normal to grieve? Is it normal to still be hurting three months after her passing? Or am I just really messed up? Experiences of others would be helpful here. I just wanted to know if I'm taking it too far. Even if I am, I can't change it, but I still want to know.

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  • LiveAndLearn696

    I got my dog four years ago and I was 10. Now I look after her like a baby. And I'm really afraid of what will happen when my baby dies.

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    • YBNormal

      @LiveAndLearn696

      If there's any advice I would offer it would be simply this: Take Pictures. Take a *lot* of pictures. Take pictures now.

      I was shocked to learn, after she was gone when I was putting together photo albums how precious few pictures I have. 14 years of love and I have probably less than 200 pictures to show for it. I'm scrounging old pictures of friends and ex-gfs, looking to see if she is accidentally in the frame. I never even thought about it during her lifetime, but now she's gone, it's too late.

      Take lots of pictures. Start right now.

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  • macncheez

    I am so sorry for your loss. We just lost our beloved dog to cancer 2 months ago and I still cry about it (I'm a grown woman). If you're like me, maybe part of what you're crying about are the life milestones and events that took place while your dog was alive. Our pets are with us for a big chunk of our lives and during some momentous events (good and bad). They can sometimes be the only bright spot in some very dark times. I've had a really rough last two years and when our dog died, thought to myself, "what else can go wrong?". But life gets better, pain fades and good memories remain. Your doggie was lucky to have you.

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  • one2one

    So sorry for your loss, I'm with the above comment
    Toys4us is correct in what they say.

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  • toys4us

    Some sum take great pleasure in leaving hurtful comments on this site take heed you will feel real pain one day it's no different pain is pain,hurt is hurt,and sure as your mother Gave birth and dropped you on you heads your day will come
    Nasty spiteful turds

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  • alv1592

    i can understand how you feel. i think of my pets as family too, and i'll be sad when they die. just remember the good times you had with her, and know that God is taking care of her up there in heaven. :)

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  • sixsix

    I just woke up from a nightmare about my dog dying. He has been dead for 6 years.

    You are normal, but you still may benefit from some counseling. (As could I)

    Condolences for your loss. I'm sure your dog knew he was very loved. :)

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  • spacerandy

    Sorry to hear that. It's completely normal to grieve after the death of a pet. Just because theyre animals it doesnt mean theyre worthless. Our pets are members of our family, they've been with us for years. I don't want to imagine what it's going to be like when they'll inevitably die. What can I say, be happy that she lived a good life (unfortunately dogs' max. lifespan is around 20). It was her time to go.

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  • dappled

    My family have generally grieved for the best part of a year after losing a dog. At the end of that year, we've felt strong enough to think about getting another dog. To us, a dog is always a family member and never "just" a pet.

    The only time I've broken down completely in a public place was over the loss of a pet. For months after, I heard noises around the house and attributed them to her before realising she was no longer with us. She was also 18 and had been part of the family since I was just a kid.

    It's one of the cruellest tricks of the God I also don't believe in, that human and dog lifespans should be so different.

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  • i hope you feel proud to have given your dog a loving home, hindsight is a wonderful thing, you just hoped for the best and didnt want to lose your friend

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  • DannyKanes

    Sorry to hear about your dog :-( People take death differently, some people have that "ah well" attitude and move on more quickly, others like ourselves grieve. Regardless it be a dog, cat, budgie, she was your best friend which makes her loss more devastating. Time will heal, but try not to be too harsh on the ones around you, they understand your pain and are trying to help you :-) tc

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  • shogun

    I can totally understand, we lost both of our dogs to cancer. We called them the boys they grew up with our daughter and grew old with us. When the big dog died he was only 8 he was the big one O loved him and he new he was special to me. If I was sick he would stay with me all day alone with his brother. I wrote a poem to him when he died. His brother. was just as loving but he spent more time with my wife until he lost his friend. We spent all our time together for the next 7 years until the big C took him. A piece of me died with him and I have tears in my eyes as I recall our memories together I also wrote a poem for him also. My boys were called
    Moschino & Versace and lived in Surrey England, time heals but the heart hurts. Soon we will be strong enough to have another dog or dogs they need us and we need them. I wish you well and what you feel is normal

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  • IINbb

    I understand, my dog past away in an accident, I'm still not over it. I believe they are always around us, watching over us. Stay strong...

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  • xvan3ssax

    i know how you feel i lost my cat about 3 years ago she had to be put down the vet said she been hit by a car but i think it wasn't cause of that kids by our area were mean and she snuck out of the house one day and came back bleeding so we had to take her to the vet she had serious injuries we had to put her down it was the best for her. she was the first pet i had i got her when i was around 6 and she was put down when i was around 13 or 14. i still miss her she was such a beautiful cat her name was spice and she was a calico, she had many cute kittens also, we gave one of her kittens to my grandma's neighbor and she still has her, she looks just like spice, and she's a calico also. lol

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  • YBNormal

    It looks like the comments and votes have pretty much stopped, so I want to take a moment to thank everyone who took the time to comment, especially those of you with loving, respectful comments, but also those of you with more "neutral" comments.

    The two or three people with nasty negative comments can go f* themselves, of course. :)

    31 yes, 2 no as of this writing. 94% normal. For what it's worth, when I saw this I nearly cried. For two months now I've been afraid that maybe I'm a little messed up, that there's something wrong with me for hurting this much over losing my best friend. But all of you have spoken loudly and clearly that it's okay, and I thank you.

    Sincerest sympathy (and empathy) to those who wrote to tell me of your own personal losses, and much love to you all.

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  • BoredGuy

    buy a parrot, they will outlive you :P

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