I never want people to leave out my life

So much more normal and healthier than the other extreme: numb/indifferent about anyone going out of your life.

You will come across, if you haven't already, people who will call you needy, clingy, and all kinds of belittling labels, but try to ignore that. You're true to who you are and that's very rare. Keep at it and soon enough you'll come across people who never want you to leave their life either.

I know what you mean, but that's life, people and things come and go, it can be a relationship forged over years that ends or an intense few hours spent with someone you will never see again, it's ever changing, even though i understand and accept that on a rational level i still think it fucking sucks and find it hard to accept on an emotional level

It's pretty normal to have emotions and to love people. You're a good person, OP. I wish I was like that. lol

Your responses to your cat vanishing and your father dying are totally normal

It's normal and something that maturity will help with. When you get older, you or many of your friends will move away. You may see them once a year instead of once a week, or not at all.

But you realize that you're still friends, and that you never actually lost anything. Take heart in knowing that you'll be able to pick up right where you left off.

How did they know the cat ran away? Kitty could have been catnapped or abducted.

Normal. Loss is hard.

Oh trust me, I totally feel you... Yeah even if it's not normal, as in of the majority, it's certainly a good thing...

I say normal!