I pinch myself

In the membrane.

Hey so I started working out and going to the gym regularly and just realized that I have stopped all together pinching myself

For those of u who say its normal please explain it to me

Oh honey, this is very distructive behavior. When you pinch or cut yourself, all you are doing is physically manifesting your emotional pain. Most people know how to deal w/ physical pain, but some people need help figuring out with they are emotionally in pain.

Talk to your guidance couselor or parents and have them refer you to a psychologist. Here you'll learn some really simple behavioral modification techniques that will help you right away.

If I had that kind of reaction, the "Don't do that!!", I wouldn't be a masochist today. 'Cus when I first contacted with it, I tryed to understand it, and went see pictures and stuff. And I actualy began to understand, and agree with.
But people in general, I don't think they do that.
I hide being maso, being bi, being wierd things, and try to look normal so that people won't piss me off about it and I can carry on with my life.

I would like to not have to hide it, but I think it would take much more effort to try to change people, and so I do it.

Don't be afraid to be "weirdo", but care about yourself even making you suffer.
I myself take as a compliment when people say I'm strange, or a "non-person" (even if they don't have the porpouse to compliment me XP).

This is a serious and concerning theme for a lot of people, 'cus they probably see you distroying you. You could avoid many people getting worried (the ones who "caught" you) if you could try to explain them you are conscious about what you are doing (even if it gives you an alomost unreal sensation :P)

Care about yourself :) (not saying you don't ^^)

Have a good day :)

It is not normal, as you can guess.

I understand not caring about pain ^^
But even if you don't care about it, you know your body is going to suffer effects.

And I don't really know about zinc deficiency, but I would say it is only because of your ideals..

That violence you show, you probably know better than anyone why you do that.
I can make my suposition: Those terrible things that happened to you shanged your way of seing the world to a very diferent way comparing to other people, and I don't think it's bad.
By not understanding you, those people that try to stop you piss you off, expecially if you have that kind of sensation while doing it.

I would recomend you doing that in a place you can less probably be caught, even if it gives you a beter sensation of not existing nothing else, 'cus it can end badly...

I'm a bit masochist, and I sometimes hit myself and stuff, and I have made myself marks once, but nothing compared to what you do.
And I don't like to look to what is normal. If someone tells me to stop doing something 'cus it's not normal I say I don't give a sh*t for if it is normal or not and I feel good by doing that not-normal thing.
As they say stop doing that anormal thing, I could say stop being normal (and I actualy pass that message to a lot of people XP).

I don't say to people "Stop cutting yourself, it will live marks on your body that look ugly", not only because I don't care about it looking ugly or not XP, but also 'cus there's some meening in cuting themselfs.

Is it only the people interrupting you or do you have hatred for them all the time, but by them doing that you show up all of it?
There are many people that hate almost everybody (without necessarily being your case), and also don't "hurt" themselfs, and so the violence don't necessarily is only related to their interruption.

People may tell you to stop. It may confuse them, it may concern them, it may scare them... And I, who don't do that either have some part of me wanting to tell you to not do it, but if you are ok with that, if it doesn't compromise your future in any way, if you don't want to stop... i think it's allrigh.

(comment too long XP, going to carry on)

weirdo .

no its not normal you should be in a looney bin

well thats the thing, I have had a number of horrible things happen to me in life.... so I have a really high tolerance to pain. Like when I am doing it ... it just doesn't hurt. As an example I one time pulled my thumb nail out with a pair of pliers and I did not think it hurt that much. Didn't think much of it... so yea for the most part I don't care about pain.

that sounds painful. why do you do that so much?

Its odd, when I am pinching myself its as if there is nothing else in the world. Everything just melts away, and when I'm through I am covered in blisters. I have been told its due to a zinc deficiency but I don't know.

You've developed a rather unusual coping method. Is there something you feel like you can avoid or stop by doing this, or does it just feel good?

You might want to stop doing that asap

InsanE...